Weekend. Again.

I think too much, and worry too much. Promising myself away to two places at the same time. I'll figure something out, I always figure something out.

But I really want to go for a walk tonight.

Last night was great though. But I don't think I want to do it again this weekend. Maybe. We'll see.

Now I'm ranting.

More chocolate.

I'm acctually kinda suprised, and impressed, by my ability not to eat all of the chocolate in one evening. I usually have no problems eating 400 g in one day, and this is only 100 g.

Today was good, I woke up half an hour before I was supposed to be in school, for the second day in a row, and still made it on time (again). In school I slept and tore paper to pieces. Creative.

I can inform people that the ice is seriously trying to kill me, it's made several attempts over the last couple of days, and today it got me pretty badly. My hips and my knees and my hands/wrists are hurting from falling on it. But, it's melting away, slowly. I just want to stand and watch and laugh at it as it can do nothing to stay. And take photos of it.

So yeah, photos. There'll be a bunch of them coming now...

Great night with great friends <3 (notice my epic shirt!)

There's ice on top of the snow. Everything is like a f*****g hockey-rink!

On the other hand, my back alley is better than yours :)

And I looked kinda good today O.o

It's not only on the poles you can find layers in the ice. Very much available in Prince Albert.

It's melting! DIE ICE DIE!

:D

And the pretty sun.

Now. Biology. Stupid Amazon something dolphin.

Chocolate.

Today I woke up.

Then I woke up again. And it was 10. School starts at 9. I've also had a headache all day.

Anyways.

I miss chocolate. I miss it too much. Me and T are sitting and talking about dark chocolate now... I miss Ahlgren's back home now. Store full of chocolate. Gonna make my sister send me some. Gonna make her bring some when she comes over for grad... Gonna go there as soon as I get home and they are open.

Chocolate. I need it.

If you happen to...

... stumble in here before the layout is completely finished, don't worry.

The dice won't be there, not in the way they are now atleast, for long. They're just there for now, instead of something else.

And uh, yeah, I took the time to figure out how to work the code and changed some stuff. Comments are welcome :)

Cabs...

When 10-15 minutes turns into 1½ hour, something is not as it should.

Friday.

I'm single now.

And I'm off to DQ to eat unhealthy stuff and talk girl-talk. With a guy.

Note to self.

Ashley is awesome <3

LED and sheep

If you want to see something crazy involving LEDlights and sheep, click here. Since I haven't figured out how to paste videos from that site onto here, you'll have to live with the url. (I could do it by HTML, but I'm too lazy to write the code)

And, once again, Assemblage 23 is fu**ing awsome. Madman's Dream is going hot in my headphones right now. Together with quite a bit of Depeche Mode as well.

Tonight was great. I'll let these pictures sum it up:

(Damn, I was colourful today!)

Now: homework. Wish me luck :D

post-day

The plan is set in action.

He talks with me.

Tomorrow awaits exams and tears.

ekdfskls

Things seem to be so much easier during the night, when day comes, comes the doubt.

But he really is starting to piss me off.

Future

A decision has been taken.

A plan has been made.

The hunt is about to begin.

Names and nicknames

I seriously need to figure out another way to refer to people here. There are 3 J's, 3 A's, and that's just some of it. Should I write the real names instead? Or will that be too much...? *needs help*

Extra weekend.

Where to start?

I had a great night last night. Me and A were both bored out of our minds, not a good thing in either case. So we decided I'd come over to his house and we'd hang out. Said and done. Ended up with watching really bad porn (worst story-line ever), going out in the not that cold weather, but still snow/hale and some wind, trying to walk through the Tim Horton's drive-through (there's a weight sensor, we were not heavy enough), and what not. It was fun, and we should do it again. More nights like that one for me :) Took a cab home around 4.30 a.m, fell asleep an hour later or so.

Monday morning I woke up too early (2.30 p.m.-ish) when T texted me. We decided that we should go to DQ and play Magic. Which we did. A came along as well. So there we sat for around 3 hours, playing. Me and A got the onion rings we craved so badly the night before (it's really stupid of 7-eleven not to have any onion rings), and we had icecream and stuff. Got a free ride home this time (yay for people with their licence and a car!) and haven't really done much since. I reinstalled WinAmp, since it decided to mess with me when I installed a plug-in for it.

So, D, happy now?

More MSN

It's funny how wrong one can be sometimes. And how fast some things change.

"ill probly talk to you later", I thank you for that, even though your spelling is horrible.

Ashley...

-=|teh_digi|=- FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU- säger (15:27):
Tired, and I think I have blisters on my hands.

Isbit || On a mission to conquer the world. Again. säger (15:27):
work or just masturbating?

---

"What's up with the text last night?"
--- 10 minutes later ---
"Okey, don't talk with me, I get it. Still makes me wonder why the fuck you texted me last night."
--- Offline ---

Very mature and manly and what not. Pussy.

The day after...

I'm tired today. And all of my body's aching. I probably deserve it. After a slow morning me and K went down to WalMart and had brunch at McDonalds, there's nothing like junk food ^_^

Now I might just fall asleep. Still no clue about the text, but I've got my suspicions. He won't answer on MSN either when I ask him. As I said before: Bitch.

Metal show and slushies

Tonight was a good night. Local metal show and slushies is a combination hard to beat. You have to love it when you can hear the drums a block away, and on the door there's a paper with the handwritten text "The show is here" on it. I'm gonna have a nice bruise on my knee tomorrow and my hand hurts, but that's the way it goes in a moshpit ^_^


After the show we (me, J, K and another D (I need to figure out another way of putting people's names here, there's like 3 D's and 4 J's by now)) went to Humpty's to get something to eat, curly fries are gooooooooooood. Then dropped D off and then stopped by 7-eleven to get slushies :) Now K is asleep next to me, and I'm trying to decide whether to sleep or play Civ IV. And oh, I made meatballs today. I think I'm gonna have some now.


Also got the strangest text from another J "I'm not ammused", and yes, spelled that way. I thought he didn't want to have anything to do with me, according to himself, and then he texts me. Sure, he was probably drunk and/or high, but still... He didn't text me back when I asked him why he texted, either. Bitch.

And the rest of today

Seems as if I was unable to sleep for no reason at all last night... We were supposed to have a biology quiz today, but we didn't. We had a math quiz though, and it was an open-book one. So no worries there. Spent most of the math class drawing, or as my teacher said "You just put on your headphones and are gone to your own world". Which is true. Suddenly I look around in the classroom and the bell's gone and everbody's left. And J is standing in the door waving to me telling me to hurry up. So we could get to his car. So he could give me a slushie. Which was really really sweet of him, creds to all guys able to take hints!

Went to the piercing/hairstylist studio after school, to get another one in my right ear. Ended up with me getting offered a job O.o
"Who does your hair?"
"I do it myself, why?"
"It looks good. Would you work here?"

But I have no work permit, so I can't. Which sucks. But it still made me happy, seems as if people appreciate my style ^_^

Spent the evening at Tramp's playing Magic, and doing some shading on my drawing. And uh, then got a ride home with T, as usual, we are gonna send the stupid people out in space and keep the earth to ourselves.

To sum the day up:

Last x-mas (well not really)

Stole from Anna who stole it from me who stole it from a classmate. Yay!

Rules:
1. Put your music library on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough. (This is freaky - sometimes it doesn't make sense, but then again..... it does. Don't cheat, stay true to the exact shuffle.
4. Ok, go!

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OK?" YOU SAY?
You and your friend

2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Speiluhr (music box)

3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Anarchy in the U.K.

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
The blood of Cu Chulainn

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Angel with the scabbed wings

6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Black pawn

7) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Little lies

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Sex, drogen und industri (sex, drugs and industrial)

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Enter sandman

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Burning heretics

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Electrohead

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Blindhammer

13.) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Abzug (discount)

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Cryptorchid

15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
In the air tonight

16) WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR WEDDING?
Augen auf! (eyes on)

17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Nothing else matters

18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Saviour

19) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Links 2 3 4 (Left 2 3 4)

20) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Africa

21) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Last x-mas

I want slush-ice.

I want a slush-ice. It's only -36 outside. And half past 1 in the morning.

My sleepingpattern is as inexistent as ever, got home from school and slept for 4 hours, been awake since around 8 PM. Got a biology quiz and a math quiz tomorrow, as well as an biology assignment that was due monday this week. Can't find the motivation to get to it though. As usual.

Atleast I talked with my drafting-teacher from last semester today, got 3 books on the subject now, just to check through and stuff so I'll be prepared for Skills Canada. Not to mention I need to spend some time in the computer lab during lunch instead of the science lab (where we play Magic), and acctually work with AutoCAD. My biggest concern right now is that I'm used to the 2003 version, and we're probably gonna be using the 2006 version at Skills Canada. If anyone knows anything about the difference of the two of them I'd love to hear about it.

There's a metal show coming up this weekend, for the first time this year. It'll be fun, I might even be able to get into the moshpit if my leg decides to be nice to me that day. If not I'll just hang around with K and laugh at J who'll be nowhere but in the moshpit. It's a long weekend, too, got friday, monday and tuesday off :)

Now back to school work. Not that I was doing any of it, but still. Study. Get good grades. Make an average of >90%. Would feel good.

...

I might need to change my illusion.

He is gone.

It hurts.

3 hours.

..

In my illusion I am better than the rest.

In my illusion I am God.

.

This is all an illusion. We are all illusions in each others worlds.

Morning

Another night of not sleeping, got stuck playing Civilization IV and drawing. Finally finished my pamphlet about locally produced food for Wildlife Management, it's still uploading to my digital locker. Becuase the school can't allow students to use Hotmail or anything like that while at school, so all those sites are blocked, so you can't really mail it to yourself. Which wouldn't matter unless it was for the small detail that the digital locker has a stupid apropiate-system, "oh no, she tried to upload something that contained the name yoshitaka, I need to notify the person responsible for the internet!" Seriously? I'm suprised each time I manage to upload something at all, since the system is a little too sensitive.

Anyways, I'm gonna get dressed and put on some makeup, and then run off to school to print the thing. And to confront J, it seems as if everything I do or say or think or want is the wrong thing. Everything that makes me me is wrong? Great.

But, atleast I'm good at drawing. Unless I'm doing that wrong as well?


Creds if you can name all of them.

Changes.

I changed the colours, and the layout, again. If it's better or worse you'll have to tell me.

This weekend's almost over, and I've done more or less nothing. Went to the movies with J yesterday, saw Watchmen. I don't want to say whether or not it's a good movie, since I haven't read the graphic novel (which I really should do btw).

Other than that I've played Neverwinter Nights 1 and Civilization IV, and avoided doing my homework. Not that it's much to do, but I still need to do it. Might get another piercing this week, just in the earlobe. Question is which one? In my right ear I've got an industrial and a normal one in the earlobe, in my left ear I've got a size 2 (5 mm) stretcher in the earlobe. I want to do both, but I don't want to have the same amount in both... And then I'd like a lip piercing, in the middle of the bottom lip... Would my parents kill me for that? Not that they've got any say in it, but still. I'll talk to the guy in the store about it. He's nice, and he's the only one here I've met who listens to Kraftwerk. Everbody else is all "Kraft Dinner?". But he's from Poland, not from Canada. Guess that explains it.


So, which one should have another one? Both?

And I should finish my Magic doodeling. It's pretty cool actually, if you think geeky stuff's cool, that is.

Realised I haven't changed my calendars from February to March yet. Got two of them in my room, a Happy Bunny and a Louis Ryou. So an egocentric bunny and halfnaked hot girls. Quite a mix.

Oh, I also need to find out where to get UV-tattoo... And to find a good picture of a ghost, preferably a Pac Man-ghost. Shouldn't take too long to make one, so it shouldn't be too expensive. Maybe next month? *wants to*

The answer,

I might sleep after all.

To sleep, or not to sleep

That is the question.

I avoid the answer and listen to Depeche Mode instead

It's 2:42 now.

Swirl

I should sleep, but there's too much swirling around in my head. It's all stuck there, it can't get out, it's too crowded. Just like when everybody is trying to squeeze out the door at the same time. That's my head now.

So I'll try to continue on the Wildlife Management - folder. Eat locally produced food. It's due on monday. I got all the information. I've started on the layout. Always something, right?

And I finished all math in class today, except for question 6, I'll ask the teacher about it tomorrow.

And apparently I'm considered being a good representant for the school, and I'm gonna be a presenter for the grade 8-tours next week. In the computerlab, talking about drafting. Tell them how fun it is, that they should choose PACI. Meeting about it on monday, school'll provide lunch for us, aka pizza.

For some reason it feels as if my ring went smaller. Funny....

Talking 'bout rings. Graduation ring. Was a grad meeting the other day, and there was a guy there showing some rings, different variations and stuff... I found one I really like, only problem being: it's $175. A lot of money. But it's pretty. So I'll send a nice email to my parents. Tell them about it and so. Not to mention the fact I need more money. Paid the grad fee, $50 and paid another $50 on my grad dress, and tomorrow it's grad pictures. Which is another $25 sitting fee. After that's paid I'll be broke.

Anways. Wildlife Management. Folder. Do it.

...

I want to write meaningful things.